I am cranky, cranky, cranky. If you think of me positvely, you may not want to read this post. It may skew your opinion of me.

I braved the elements this morning (driving rain, blistering winds) to go to the post office. I also went to the grocery story to buy some coffee cream, as the office was all out. I decided to pick up a few things for lunch, and for the weekend.

I got to the cash, and gave them my debit card. Insufficient funds. I knew I was in overdraft, but I didn't think I had reached my limit. So, I tried the Visa card. Decline. Oh, fuck.

I used to work in a grocery store. There used to be very poor people who would get an order of food, they'd get to the cash and not have any money. A lot of them would do it repeatedly. They'd look at me as if to say "oh, come on... can't you just let me have the milk?" Some of them would be embarrased, and I'd be embarrased for them.

Well, today, I turned into those people. I only had $7 on me (in twoonies, and loonies, even...not even the more respectable paper money..).... and the bill came to almost $20. So, there I was, having to throw back what I couldn't afford to buy. Thankfully, no one was behind me, but I could feel my face burning hot with embarrassement. It was awful. Adding insult to injury, I was in such a rush to get out that I ended up buying a package of English muffins, the coffee cream (note: when I got back to the office, it turns out someone had already bought some yesterday without telling me, maybe the whole trip to the grocery store pointless), and a red onion.

So, I go back to the office to take a closer look at my banking. Oh, its bad. Could someone please explain to me, though, why the bank takes out MORE money when you're already in the negative column? Bah. I'll be getting paid next week, thank god, but the majority of it will be eaten up by the overdraft. Bah x infinity.

I really hesitated writing this post. I don't like people knowing that I'm so broke. Hell, I didn't even know I was this poor, to be honest. Anyway.

And, so, most of the staff is out of the office again, today. I usually don't mind, except that they had things planned for today, and totally blew them off, and I had to pick up the pieces. There were people showing up looking to attend some programs they had today, and I didn't know anything about them. Oh, and that newspaper article came out. Good article, except the picture that they used simply has my name underneath it, and I'm not in the picture.

I want to go home, put on my jammies, and watch Judge Judy. Wah.